Yeah, it’s pretty obvious when I fall off the wagon, isn’t it?
If you look at the widget to the right –> you’ll see that, over the past four months, I’ve actually re-gained 12 of the almost 50 pounds I’d lost. While I’m not proud of this fact, admitting it and putting it out there for everyone to see is a huge step for me in getting back on track to losing.
Do you ever get to a point in your life—in any area of your life—in which you know you’re sabotaging yourself, but you just can’t help it? That’s where I’ve been since November. I fell back into all of my old eating patterns . . . except for the ten days I was in Baton Rouge over Christmas. I think the only reason I’m not up 15 or 20 lbs is because I actually lost 3 or 4 lbs over Christmas because I was so careful about what I ate. For some reason, it’s a lot easier for me to do that when I’m around other people than when I’m alone.
Of course, since returning home from BR, I’ve been indulging in stress eating because of the deadline for my next book (which I missed and am now late on) and the tons of freelance work I’ve had come in (and dreading the knowledge that I’m going to owe a few thousand dollars in taxes this spring). I’ve subconsciously used that as an excuse to indulge in high-sugar, high-fat foods which have, obviously, taken their toll on the progress I’d managed to make over the past two years.
Well, no more sabotage—at least I’m going to try not to.
I’ve rejoined Weight Watchers. (Gained three pounds the first week I was back on it. Hello!!!) And this week, I determined I was going to start exercising again. Pulled out the DVD I made of the exercise program Shimmy from Fitness TV (edited out the commercials so I don’t have to stop and ffwd through them) a couple of days. But then yesterday, I found myself online looking at treadmills and thinking how nice it would be to have one at home so that I could walk while the weather’s cold. And then started thinking about how nice it would be to start swimming again. And maybe start taking some actual exercise classes. So I opened up a new page to the YMCA of Middle Tennessee website and discovered I could register/pay online. So at 1 a.m. this morning, I did that. And at 10 a.m. this morning, I walked in the door, got my new ID card, and got up on the treadmill.
I knew I’d have to take it easy this first day, so all I’d planned on was one mile. But once I hit one mile, I figured I could go at least another quarter of a mile. And once I hit 1.25, I realized it was only a few more minutes until I’d been walking for 30 minutes. So I did 1.5 miles in 30 minutes, which gives me a baseline for setting some fitness goals for myself.
I have fifteen and a half months until I turn 40 years old. And my goal (as stated by the title of this blog) is to be at or at least within 10 pounds of my goal weight by the time I turn 40. I have 100 lbs (+/-) to lose to reach that goal, which works out to losing an average of almost 7 pounds per month. And supposedly, the more I lose, the harder it’ll be to get the weight off—so I really need to work hard at it now to get the “easy” pounds off (and to fit back into all of my clothes that I could wear four or five months ago which are fitting a little tightly now) and to start regaining control over my health, well-being, and self-image.
How are you doing? Where are you with your weight and fitness goals?