Well, as you can tell, I haven’t been working on my weight loss with any consistency in 2010. My excuses are that it’s because my writing deadlines have been too close together and life has been too hectic. But even I know those are excuses. Healthy lifestyle choices shouldn’t be dependent upon deadlines and stress. The truth of the matter is that when the going got tough this year, I went back to all of my old eating patterns: sugars, refined carbs, fast food—those foods that are linked to addiction because they release dopamine in the brain and make us, momentarily, feel better.
Before I went to Arkansas in May to visit my parents, my weight had crept back up to almost 290. Yep, I’d almost sabotaged myself right back to where I’d started. But then my mom and I made a commitment to each other that we’d stick to a low-carb eating plan and try to get to the gym a few times each week so that we could take off a few pounds before my cousin’s wedding in Charleston, SC, in the middle of July. Even though I didn’t make it to the gym all that often, and I occasionally slipped with the food plan (and didn’t track as often as I’d committed to), I got my weight down to 285 before we left for Charleston.
When I came home, though, I had another book deadline looming—with more than half the book to write in about two weeks. And I was flat broke. So the last two weeks of July were spent eating and sleeping on an irregular schedule, and what I could afford to buy at the grocery store was definitely not healthy: a big sack of potatoes, peanut butter and jelly and bread (wheat, but not the more expensive healthier whole wheat with extra fiber), and a value-pack of Ramen noodles.
So when the first week of August hit, and a check for a small freelance project I did in June finally arrived—enough for a trip to the grocery store—I determined I was going to get back on the healthy track—that I was going to do the Atkins Induction for a couple of weeks to break the sugar/carb cravings and get back to the gym again.
I weighed myself on August 4, and was at 287—so at least I hadn’t completely sabotaged myself while on that deadline. When I weighed again last Wednesday, after a week of sticking to low-carb and getting to the gym several times to swim and take water aerobics classes, I was down 4.5 pounds to 282.5.
Until I can afford to re-join Weight Watchers, I’ll be weighing myself in on Wednesdays (yes, that’s tomorrow). I know I do better when I’m open and honest about what I’m doing—and when I’m doing it publicly, so that’s why I’m restarting this blog.
I also know there’s no way I’ll hit my goal weight of 170 by my 40th birthday next May. But I’m still calling this blog Fabulous by Forty, because the point, more than hitting a goal weight, is to be healthier, happier, and hotter 😉 by the time I turn the big 4-0.