I’m starting to become one of those people I can’t stand—someone who makes big noise about setting goals and then never accomplishes them.
Traveling so much this year has been hard on me, as has being in a financial crunch for most of the year, meaning that I’m either having to eat whatever’s put in front of me (or fast food when I’m not being reimbursed for travel expenses) when I’m on all these trips or that I’m having to buy the cheapest foods available to eat at home—and those are never the healthiest choices in the store.
But, I am now going to be home for the longest stretch of time in 2010—almost nine weeks at home without as much as an overnight trip anywhere. Then, it’s a week with my parents at Thanksgiving (where my mom and I can egg each other on to make healthy choices together) and back home until I go back to see them the week of Christmas. So I have three goals for the last quarter of 2010 (at least as far as this blog is concerned):
- At least 30 minutes of activity every day of the week. This can be walking on the treadmill or swimming at the gym (and I just ordered a pair of the Danskin toners from Walmart—only $20!), walking in the neighborhood (the weather’s supposed to be absolutely perfect this week), or getting out my Shimmy (belly dancing) exercise DVD and using it.
- Make healthy food choices every day—and document it on FitDay.com. I’m going to be sticking to a healthy low-carb diet: basically leaner proteins, veggies, limited whole grains and dairy, and fruit after I break the sugar addiction a few weeks into it. (And if you’d like to check in and make sure I’m doing this, sign up for a free account of Fit Day and become my “friend” so you can access my Journal.)
- Lose FIFTEEN pounds by Christmas. I made this commitment verbally to Jeane Wynn, my publicist, at the ACFW conference, so now I’m putting it in writing. I’d love to rejoin Weight Watchers, but it just isn’t in the finances right now. So I’ll weigh myself on Wednesday mornings and report it here.
Obviously, the main reason I need to do this is for my health. I’m tired of feeling tired; I’m tired of my back hurting when I wake up in the mornings. But I also need to do this because I need to fit back into all of my clothes. After regaining twenty pounds of the fifty I’d lost by this time last year, none of my size 22 clothes fit, which is most of what was in my closet, as I’d been getting rid of clothes as I got too small for them (I almost said as they got too big for me). I’ve had to spend far more money than I should have on larger size clothes this year—mostly stuff I could wear to all these events/meetings/conferences/speaking engagements, since I couldn’t just show up in stretchy knit pants—and I’m not wanting to have to buy more larger-size clothes for the winter. I want to wear all the cute stuff I already have: sweaters and tops and skirts and pants and jeans and jackets. Mostly, I want to regain the confidence I’d started feeling when the numbers on the scale started inching down toward 260—and then broke to 258, the least I’d weighed in I don’t know how long.
It’s sad . . . two years ago at the ACFW conference, when I’d been losing weight (working out and eating right) successfully for nine months, I jumped into group pictures and handed people my camera so I could have pictures of me with everyone I know. This year, even though I wasn’t consciously avoiding cameras, I didn’t make an effort to get pictures taken with anyone—and I only ended up with one photo on my camera of me with anyone else . . . with a member of my local writing group, Jodie Bailey, before the banquet:
I was so uncomfortable in that dress and in those heels that I ended up leaving before the actual awards portion of the evening started, went back up to my room to change into comfy (larger-sized) jeans and a (larger-sized) T-shirt, then took my laptop back down to the lobby where I sprawled on the sofa and read the live blog of the awards presentations.
So, Monday morning, I’m taking my whiteboard back into the kitchen and going through the relatively well-stocked fridge and freezer and making a food plan for the week. Wednesday, I’ll weigh in for my baseline/starting weight for this fifteen-pound challenge.